My Chronicle - Ebesui

Chronicle

This will be my diary for some of my days here in Ireland and being more specifc in Drogheda.

*After the middle of May I moved to Dundalk, where I am living

09/30/23 - 15h30

I’ve been through some hard and good days here in Ireland, but since I am just starting this diary today (09/30), I will just thank you for some people for helping me here:

The guys from the house I came, and yes, I am living in the ELI House and it’s fucking terrible how things happen here, especially because I was not used to share the room with other people since I am 12 years old.

However, some of these guys have been so nice to me and putting me up, while other tried to put me down (in the most of the times without even knowing that).

I am just about to leave my house to speak with the guy I will probably pay for the rent and share the studio apartment with.

Let’s hope everything works fine and then we can keep my process here in Ireland, step by step, without forgetting my main objectives here.

To get a master degree and to work and develop as a good professional

10/01/23 - 20h51

I am writing from 3 minutes from Tesco Drogheda and 11 minutes from the Eli School where I will study.

The house is okay and I am already settled myself.

My next steps are: Do the GNBI, look for some jobs and enjoy my time here, of course!

12/26/23 - 15h22

My life completely changed here and I am going to point out some highlights since my last time writing here:

But before that, let’s listen to the same music, so we will be able to be in the same mood!

Next steps will be:

Just realized I could use this as my new year’s resolution list

01/19/24 - 18h22

I decided to not keep posting updates here, since it can be acessed by anyone in the internet, however I will keep writing in another forum and eventually I can share next events here on the website

see you now!

02/19/24 - 21h37

What can I say to update you since my last messages here:

– I changed acommodation to a new place, small room, no wifi, mold, but I can cook my food, wash and dry my clothes freely, the guys are nice and I am feeling way more comfortable now.

– I lost the Erasmus GOALS application.

– I got accepted in DCU and applied for the UCD, TCD and for the romenian scholarship lmao.

– I already made 3 calls with a guy who is supossed to help me with the applications.

– I still am not working in Toxicana, however I did a trial that, until now, it went okay, I am waiting for the response for FUNTASIA and my life in Best’s is kinda hard right now (I am not getting the suits sales properly).

– I still need to apply for the GOI scholarship and the DAAD scholarship.

– I really want to finish my classes in ELI and I really would like to be accepted in the scholarship here.

Besides that, things are okay, I just need to do a good application and hope for the best.

03/01/24 - 18h42

Everytime that I am going to add new information and updates in the page I notice that the most frequent sentence is how my life completely changed from one update to the other and like always, here is the highlights:

– The store didn’t renew my contract for March, so at the moment I am unemployed.
– The rent is okay, but the guys are starting to complain about the energy waste, let’s see how this will happen in the future, however for now I need to pontuacte better about my duties and desires here.
– I am not using my heater that I bought and let’s see what happens with this discussion.
– I will start my work in KFC, let’s see how this goes as well.
– I have two interviews for the middle of March, one is an agency that I spoke in November, they have their office in Dundalk and there is the possibility of sponsoring my VISA, it would be the best thing for me and the other one is in a applegreen in Ashbourne thanks to Ivan, my mexican friend.

– I am going to comeback to smoke and drink (I can’t wait, I think I was more productive when I will using them) in the 17th of March, aka Paddy’s Day, aka Saint Patrick’s Day.

– I did the application for DAAD and got accepted in TCD again =), however I will need to solve how I am going to maintain my extension visa here, since the results will come out around June =(.

– I will need to change the dates for my flights back to Brazil, but it should be around July (The only thing I will have to buy the new ticket)

And just to finish today’s update, this is a montage I made for my first show in Ireland

The CalloutBoys, Unprocessed and Tesseract played in The academy and it was focking Bonkers!!!!!!!!

07/02/24 - 16h23

Fist of all, yes, my life changed completely again and I am listening to the Deadmau5 that I included in the last post, while I am typing in here.

It´s the first time that I am typing in this diary from my own room on Brazil (São Paulo).
It worked as planned and I managed to get the position on the Marketing Agency in Dundalk. I worked there for 2 months and a half before travelling to Brazil where I am staying the last day of the 17 that I spent here.

I am having an insane Sunday Blues due to all these days that I spent here pretty much playing videogame, going out with friends and being with my family, but I believe that it´s just because I got tired from all the things that happened on this last 10 months.

I am coming back to my Masters in Dublin (IBAT) and continue working in ZOMA.

I am going to use the same checklist I did on other post for this “second level” abroad from Brazil.

Do my first trip here in Europe
Decide what keep doing here
Get a job in my area
Send applications to companies and universities
Buy a new phone, new gamer laptop, action camera and running shoes
Finish Masters
Keep things Going on ZOMA

11/02/24 - 22h28

I am impressed that I did not make any post after I came back to Ireland.

As always, many things have changed, well, in some how.

I am fine in ZOMA and I have been making webistes besides the ads, so things are pretty hetic, especially when we consider that the Masters are going at the same time and starting to get busy with the deadlines for the assignments in the next couple of weeks.

I have been going out with a lot of girls, not a lot, just two.

One of them arrived here 12 years ago and doesn’t really answered me. We went out just one time and I made a couple of “mistakes”, even tought she still shows interests. Just don’t answer after I reply to her…

The other one is the one that I am going out more and she is also Brazilian, but arrived here 2 months ago and has the same ammount of interests as I have. E-sports, music and stuff are really close.

I spent the night on her house yesterday and we speaking a lot since we meet by accident on the ELI Halloween party in Drogheda.

I am on a break right nnow and there is so many fucking things in my mind. I really don’t know how the next weeks are going to be, but I need to decide the following things:

Am I going to Budapest to the New Year’s?

Am I going to get a second job?

How the assigments are going to result?

Are the clients and the work in ZOMA get sorted?

Am I going to tomorrow’s or will I have to cancel due to the meeting with my colleagues for the SMEs assignment?

I am listening to Breathe Deeper from Tame Impala and everytime that I listen to that shit I remember the other Brazilian that is living here for over 12 years. Fuck!

Oh, other thing, I am participating the NNN challenge and it’s probably the thing that is affecting me the most. Fuck I have this fucking addiction.

11/30/24 - 21h31

Starting by answerings some of the last questions:

– Yes, I am going to Budapest, bought the airplane tickets a couple hours ago
– I did not get a second job yet.

– I believe some of them went final, but I still need to make 5 of them in two weeks and I didn’t start yet.

– It’s an open question, but some of the clients and some of projects there got sorted. Still there is work to be done and I still need to get more comfortable with some of the topics.

– I dont’ really know what the first part of the question refers to, this is the bad thing of just putting the words in my mind in a document. Sometimes they don’t have cohesion and should have loads of grammar mistakes.

Now going to the main points of today’s thread:

I was playing CS on train (2017 vibes) while I started to write this section.

I am playing a lot and for this reason I could be lonnier than I wanted to.

I am literally waiting for the day to turn and I can smoke weed again. I guess this is one more addiction that I am having.

I made the whole month without drinking and smoking. I couldn’t finish the NNN again, I lost in the 16 or something…

Now that we are coming to the last month of the year, I would like to point out some of things that I did this year and just stop to think about how much my life changed in just one year.

The most dramatic ones was me moving out to different places: Turkish asshole, the house with latinos and now here in Dundalk.

There are differences and I feel that I hide myself sometimes, however for the most part my relationship is good enough with them. Much better than any of the other houses.

Yes, they don’t have the same standarts of hygiene in the house, but in an overview I am doing fine.

I worked in 4 different places this year and did my first freelance photoshoot a couple weeks ago.

I am happy enough with my trajectory, even tought I am broke as I never was. The Master’s is almost half way done and I should be able to land good positions after the completion.

Would I stay in Ireland for the next two years after finishing them? I will probably be able to answer that a couple sections below…

For today’s music it was the background music of CS with the sound package of Talos Principle, it couldn’t be more me.

Alone, playing CS with reference to a game heavily influenced by existencialist philosophy in a house in the north countryside of Ireland.

I just hope I am going to do that again with a more random place and maybe, hopefully, with someone that I can share my life with.